Friday, September 12, 2008

Quick update

i havent been on orkut for exactly a million years, not been online much lately. im not exactly an orkut addict, for those of you who think so, its just that it is the most convenient way to keep in touch with a few people i like [most people i like are all virtual friends whom i dont meet in person so much- no joke.]. i havnt been taking calls as right after school im either falling dead asleep, or am mostly really working/pissedoff/withdrawing from the world. pathetic time at school im having, terribler time at home. i wake up with eyelids heavy and thick as bricks, head not wanting to register the heaviness of my thighs and all the weight that im gaining but infact dragging myself out of bed pulls me deep INTO the realization that the highthyroidthingy is doing its job. motherfucking doctor must've given me thyro-KILL instead of thyronorm. i have 18.33 something when its suppossed to be somewhere around 3 and 6 is considered HIGH HIGH HIGH AND HE'S WAITING FOR IT TO SLOWLY AND STEADILY PULL ITSELF BACK TO NORMAL? WHAT UTTER FOOLERY.then school and a thousand yelling matches, getting reminded of how much i suck, how much bad karma im gathering.they should really do the others and the teachers a favour and throw me out. and then there's light-tracing topomap extracts. FIVE extracts by the way. i wish i could find a dangerous enough looking image of a toposheet and put it up here, although even that could explain the degree of deadness i am in unless you're really familiar with the horror of spending time in a dark, dingy room with just one very strong light source right under the surface where your hand is suppossed to lie while you try tracing out contour lines with exactly 0.234532678 mm of space between them, sometimes the blinding light going straight into your already hurting eyes,all the while having to worry about whether you're actually bunking a class or if its a free period. 7 people on one tiny tracing table with one blown out bulb, its not a joke.everytime i close my eyes i see power lines, railway tracks, metalled roads, mahanadi boken grounds open mixed scrub and everything going terribly wrong. tests from monday. benchmarks and else-dont-show-me-your-face-s.more boils. PATHETIC.


here's a pic of the shit spread around at home. these are the three smallest extracts that i've started, and none of them are even close to complete. the others are WORSE.threatening-er. )

geography excursion. we leave on the 18th. mom worrying her ass off and killing me with the constant nagging.GD ma'am gonna get pissed at me, no work done.this blogpost is making me impatient, almost wanting to cry out of frustration but let me answer/ask a few things.

@shruti- yes i would like the ebook very much, :).
be kind enough to mail it? i hope i get to read soon enough, really.
@soumi- god DID YOU GUYS HAVE TO DO FIVE EXTRACTS TOO?OR IS IT JUST IM? I am gonna be killing her if its the latter.

@others- hello and goodbye. listen to something anything by travis great song waiting for their new album i havnt heard any music in ages my ipod earphones are dead-ish you see? any chance i get i start whining. must stop NOW.

p.s: saason ki zaroorat hai jaise..
ok im overdoing it.

p.p.s: i hate people.bleeding earlobepiercings. LUCKYBOYYOUREMYLUCKYBOY- ria, please shut the fuck up sometimes.


Doubletake, Doublethink. said...

okay, you know how everyon ehas this one band that they worship but not everyone else listens to it and thinks it's rather lame that the band IS being worshipped?

for me, travis is that band. have always loved them. i'll even listen to the suckier songs over and over and over again. i also think they're underrated, and yes, i've been finger-pointing laughed at for that :(

i'm ranting too. ohgod.

whatever.shit said...

i am guessing that i am supposed to reply.

yes, we had to do 5 topo maps too.
and don't worry.
you are not the only one.


so, yes.

and don't worry, i sympathise.

and i really think that you need this excursion.
just get out.
sleep and wake up without having to listen to other shit.
just get out.

and yes,


[[pssst. i had to tell you loads. but you first empty yourself. get over with things. take it easy. and then, call me up. shout at me. and then, i shall tell you.]]

Lucid Darkness said...

*prods you into getting back to the topo sheets*

Don't worry, I'll integrate more stuff for you till you're done. :P
And wait for the hormone levels to steady themselves (no pun intended)... it'll take time but hey, it'll get better.

And as for FA, *ahem*. *smirk grin and points at you and laughs-ness*


little boxes said...

who on earth is GD ma'am now?
and dont worry...everyone's survived their share of topo sheets.
u shall too.

lilblackstar said...

uhh i like the floating eye. and take a deep breath. calm down