Friday, December 28, 2007

fun quiz for myspace profile and blog

Lets101 - Free Online Dating Site

hahaha barring the first three sentences,and the fifth and the sixth and a few more sentences here and there, i know i know the rest is like spot on!

.nostalgiafactory. by ~weevilgirl on deviantART

and a few more pictures mine.

no i havnt been doing much but i guess i WOULD have if i had a camera and such.
so well the thing is that its winter and all with the oh-i-love-winter or the oh-winter-is-a-bitch posts all over blogsphere and i so absolutely suck at them that i wont even begin to try writing one of those.but well winter IS fucking cool. haha. even though it doesnt get too cold here in this city which is a pity pity pity. siliguri was so much cooler XD i dig winters yes. blankets and all.and i like my nose getting frozen up and shivering is fun. no kidding. but its not like i get to enjoy the worldoutdoorsthebeautyandwhatnot at any time of the year anyway so wtf it doesnt make much of a difference. like pujas. when do i ever get to go out even during the pujas? so well on christmas i couldnt've expected much. not like anything interesting EVER happens during festivals and such. seasons, festivals or just.. things arent too much of a happy issue when its my life we're discussing. yes even going to the terrace and spending time there must be fun during winters but im only allowed there for say 15 mins at the most. like im gonna get killed somehow or maybe im gonna turn into some evil witch if i stay there for too long. im 17 for pete's sake. but who wants to consider that anyway? its all so horrible and gets my head so messy and makes things so complicated that talking about it in simple stupid goddamn sentences feels quite liberating actually and FUCK MAN NORAH JONES IS IN THE CITY AND I HAVE NO FRIGGING CLUE ABOUT IF THERE'S GONNA BE A SHOW AND SUCH I SURE WANNA GO MAN YOU KNOW ITS GONNA BE CRAZILY OUTRAGEOUS IF I DONT GET TO
and i dont like facebook. its got like thousands of stupid apps and everyone has to send requests for adding those apps to everyone else.its all just very lame. but not being allowed to play in the band is the lamest thing in the entire universe. and now that i got reminded of THAT, i dont think i wanna talk anymore.

p.s.:im notinlove with anyofyou. im not about to fallinlovewithanyofyou anytimesoon. therefore, im not going to be in a relationship with you. what makes that so hard to get?

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

YOU don't seem special.
but neither do i.

now the trouble begins while trying to decide whether both those statements taken together matter more or just the first matters more than anything else.

and this isn't a question hurled at any of you.

Saturday, December 15, 2007

yes i know, ok? i know im a tomboy. and i dont care. deal with it. or maybe no you dont HAVE to deal with it you can just leave me alone and get on with your life. what makes that so difficult?

Monday, December 3, 2007

And it is now that I can’t place what I was seeking
When the petals have been placed
Right before me
Waiting to be alloyed
Into a plant’s dream child
The one to be born of
A touch…
deeper than the music of the world.

The smile is weary
And unsure of its own efficacy
While its lover faces it with a sparkle
Which holds mysteries of the sunny winter night.
Mysteries out of reach and obscure.
Wrapped in different layers of child’s clothing
Petals et all.

A moment or decade
And the newborn withers somewhat in the shadows of the day
Lying dormant with a penny in its mouth
Willing to buy time..
Wishing to buy a chilly summer night.

And now when the petals lay waiting
I juggle with words.


and i feel awful. horrible. like a porcupine trapped in the shell of a diseased human devoid of jhdfkjhakjfhkjhj i cant explain.
things are apparently so going my way.
but its not like im going to change anytime soon and that doesnt make things any better for me yes its none of your fault so you need not be tortured having to read all this and no it isnt obligatory you know. just go about your business why dontcha?
i cant open any blogpage for some reason although singing into blogger and all that can be done. so therefore i cant post comments or reply to them and blah and blah and what not :

and its HORRIBLE when you can see people thinking that you feel in a particular way for them when you most definately dont but you cant exactly make that clear you dont even know why.
im going to die a loner. im too used to it.
i WANT to die a loner. i want to DIE. yes you are all welcome to come and discuss how immature im being.heh, like anyone's reading anyway.