Guess Who

there are things i so know i mustnot bedoing and am always so firm about NOT doing them but it seems like some sudden convergence of forces inside my sillyhead makes me do it anyway and then i ALL i can do is repentrepentrepent feeling like a piece of rusteddidcardedjunkjewellery which was never used anyway.
how silly.
how absurd.
how fucking loserish.
ANGER seems to be therapautic. no really i feel angry mad outraged at myself it helps me keep my mind off the distress about how ATTENTIONSEEKING THE ENTIRE THING MAKES ME LOOK.

MY MOM IS ALWAYS RIGHT.AND I MUST NEVER LISTEN TO WHATSHEKEEPSMUTTERING CAUSE ITS TURNING ME INTO JUST WHAT SHE SAYS I AM AND WOULD BECOME. NO THIS ISNT RELEVANT NOTHING MATTERS AAAAAAAA THIS IS THE END.

p.s.: i also wanted mylastpost to be chuckedaway cause i dont like it anymore.

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p.p.s: i didnt wanna have another post for this so :

The Part of You That No One Sees

You are aloof, mysterious, and distant. People feel like they really don't know the true you... Yet they're still drawn to you, almost by magnetic force. Underneath it all, you don't even really feel like you know yourself. It's easier to put on a front than really think about your life's purpose. You tend to seem pretentious, but it's just a mechanism you use to push people away.

What's the Part of You That No One Sees?

pretentious.
no thats just to hide how dumb a loser i am. just like every other wannabe kid you find.