Small ones.

You did not catch-
my eyes, burnt out
lamps- closing like a poem
saddened by love.

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Plea
edges of these lips
fraying and weary- come by
to lend them pliancy.

4 MORE DAYS AND IT'LL BE A WEEK

so on the 18th of december when I WAS FEELING ALL CAPS i decided to write someshit everyday, something anything everyday, as journal entries. their shittyness, i tell you, is noteworthy but i DID MANAGE TO STICK TO IT FOR 3 HOLY DAYS *!*

so here are the thingies.

18th: decadencebegins here
19th: winterbegins here
20th: haha here.


i sorta love my wordpress at the moment xD so i think ill post everything there and post links here because all you bastards never check that blog anyway.

Plimsoll line

15/12/08,

9:16 PM

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i will now write you a poem titled 'because',

a poem holding no reasons to negate.


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what makes a cave is the wall drawings. what makes

an ocean is the borders, bord- oh no the lack of them. what

makes a bird is bones obsessed with emptiness

and elbowroom. what makes a cave is you standing outside, wondering

what it hides and pushing in an arm whispering you're

beautiful as you sense the dark (take it back

along with your arm).what makes an ocean salt water

and nothing more is the shark circling around a ship, thinking that the

ship is big enough for itself and it needs no more.


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i will now stop pretending that i'm still going to

call this because.

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what makes a ship is the plimsoll line (ignored)

what breaks a poem is the loose ends let loose.


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And it breaks my Hea-aa-aa-aa-art.

I never loved nobody fully

Always one foot on the ground

And by protecting my heart truly

I got lost in the sounds...

And suppose I never ever met you
Suppose we never fell in love

Suppose I never ever let you kiss me so sweet and so soft

Suppose I never ever saw you

Suppose we never ever called

Suppose I kept on singing love songs just to break my own fall

All my friends say that of course its gonna get better
Gonna get better

Better

better

better

better

Better better better!!!

I hear in my mind

All these voices

I hear in my mind all these words

I hear in my mind

All this music

And it breaks my heart,It breaks my heart

Breaks my Heart Breaks my heart and it breaks my heart

And it breaks my heartAnd it breaks my heartAnd it breaks my heartAnd it breaks my heartAnd it breaks my heartAnd it breaks my heartAnd it breaks my heartAnd it breaks my heartAnd it breaks my heartAnd it breaks my heartAnd it breaks my heartAnd it breaks my heartAnd it breaks my heartAnd it breaks my heartAnd it breaks my heartAnd it breaks my heartAnd it breaks my heartAnd it breaks my heartAnd it breaks my heartAnd it breaks my heartAnd it breaks my heartAnd it breaks my heartAnd it breaks my heartAnd it breaks my heartAnd it breaks my heartAnd it breaks my heartAnd it breaks my heartAnd it breaks my heartAnd it breaks my heartAnd it breaks my heartAnd it breaks my heartAnd it breaks my heartAnd it breaks my heartAnd it breaks my heartAnd it breaks my heartAnd it breaks my heartAnd it breaks my heartAnd it breaks my heartAnd it breaks my heartAnd it breaks my heartAnd it breaks my heartAnd it breaks my hearAnd it breaks my heart

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Regina Spector - Fidelity

go listen to the song. it made me draw this.please fullview the last ,whole picture and go listen go listen. i'll colour it later, this is just a tinted version. its for me i need to cheer me up.

and it breaks my hea-a-aa-a-aa-a-aa-a-aa-aaaaart.

ps:so in my mind i am always wearing allstars, am mostly flat chested, though i still have little hair.

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EDIT EDIT EDIT:

here you go. SOMEWHAT coloured, i just dont have patience to do more right now.i will colour it in hand later LATER LATER LALALA

fullview if you please.

gravity eyelids

HAHA I LIKE CHARCOAL IT DE-DEPRESSES ME IN LESS THAN A MINUTE NO EXAGGERATION

i only used so much of it because i dont know how to use it well ihave twenty sticks lying aroundand dunno whattodowiththem.

and the title oh just because i waslistening to the song earlier today, er no, yday (since its way past midnight) and i cant think of titles anyway HAHAHA GOD THIS LOOKS

terrible on my laptop :X

looks better on my desktop.anyway, edited version:

also, i cant make paper lie FLAT in the scanner. :/

and yes i KNOW about the finger, just dont point it out. please. i just got too lazy to define it as bent. WHATEVARZ.

Off my journal 2

read here.

One of the people i wish i knew better

..just went and killed himself.

Him: Hey mate i need a big favour from you. i need you to search wikipedia for a list of psychoactive herbs and plants, right now. I know this is probably the worst way to begin a phone correspondence but i'll make it up to you someday. I dont know how, but i promise i will.

how'd you plan on doing that now, eh?
i dont know, mate.i could really use some help in maths right about now, yknow.and some weed, ganja baba, you. and our fathers happen to be colleagues too, cool eh? too bad i found out a lil too late.